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[16 Jul 2006|02:54pm]
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Wow, I'm amazingly happy. Melbourne says 'hello' to you all and I'll be flying back on Wednesday :)

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NSFW [06 May 2006|10:56am]
Llama pr0n!
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[30 Apr 2006|02:08pm]
Well, a lot has been happening lately. It hasn't been the best week.

Two weeks ago, Saturday, I started to get a bit of a cough. I just thought it was a pesky cold that had come back after only 3 weeks. But I was sorely disappointed when it turned into a hacking cough that left my throat completely shredded. I completely lost my voice for about 3 days. Luckily we got in to see the doctor last Friday and it turns out it was a viral infection. I've never been on antibiotics before and it's not really a big deal at all, which was nice. It also meant I didn't have to go in to work for a whole week. :D

Then there was the hardest decision I've ever had to make in my life. So many times in the week after I had made my decision I've been thinking on it and just been so turned around that I crumbled. All of my reasoning was just so all over the place and it stopped making sense. Maybe I didn't feel that way. Maybe I was just feeling it for that short period of time. Maybe it was only passing. But when I think over it, and as hard as it was, it was the right decision. For both of us. I didn't exactly feel like the nicest person in the world that night and I'm not sure who hurt more. Even though I've taken the time to be awfully depressed for a few days and get used to the idea I'm still not completely right. I'm a tad glad that most of my friends were spared the awkwardness and my blubbering anyway.

My life is still sort of all over the place and right now it seems that fate has decided I'm not his favourite little cookie anymore. Last night, after work, I went to check that the bins were unlocked and slipped on the bitumen. All my weight fell onto my jaw, which was smacked onto the concrete curbing. My jaw was pushed pretty hard up to the left and it has split open. I just thought I'd grazed it, but went into the staff room to clean up the blood anyway. When I got into the bathroom to put a wet tissue to it I looked in the mirror and noticed that my chin was actually falling out of the wound. Not a very pretty sight, I assure you. Sitting in the staff room wasn't the most fun I've ever had either. My hands were shaking and I felt like I was going to feint. They got some water into me and cleaned it up with an antibacterial wipe. I called my parents to come and pick me up. I never realised how hard it is to find an open pharmacy at 8pm before. We only just made it to the one in Forrestfield, which closes at 8:30pm, and even then they shut the doors behind us.

Got home and my dad brought out the stuff to clean the wound. Started off with just some normal stuff with a cotton bud and that was fine. Felt a bit weird, but it didn't hurt. Then he brought out the peroxide. *shudders* That shit stung. But it had to be done, I suppose. The worst part was this swab. It looked like a lollipop, but it was kind of dark brown. Beta-something or Bene-something. He pressed it to my chin and tears were streaming down my face. It was terrible. I don't really remember if he wiped it or anything, it hurt that badly. Got butterfly tape on there and a few dressing things and now I have a white chin... Doesn't look terribly attractive, but I'll live.

I'm just kind of pissed off that it happened. I could have slowed down a bit to catch my footing. I did have the chance to leave work a bit earlier to be at Trent's party, but I felt I should stay and help out. But it's just one more shit thing that's happened in my shit week and it's not good. I'm certainly not a happy chap. I'm really annoyed I couldn't see everyone at the party. I was looking forward to it. I miss everyone terribly.

So I'm angsting in my journal about how crap my life is, or something. I figured I kind of deserve it with how I'm feeling at the moment. Got out of bed this morning and I can't even eat fucking toast, that's how much my jaw hurts. I have a huge swollen area on my left thigh and knee and my left arm is painful. I'm pretty fucking angry at the world right now. *Glares*.
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Ooh! [18 Apr 2006|06:15pm]
Oh please oh please oh please! Someone get me these CDs. Pretty sure I can't buy them in stores since these bands are pretty unheard of. But their music is just so damn good!

The Wetspots and Mikelangelo and the Blacksea Gentlemen.

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It's certainly been a while, hasn't it? [04 Apr 2006|09:22pm]
I've been thinking lately about the word that describes me best. I think I've pinpointed it to 'avoidant'.
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[10 Feb 2006|11:44am]
<td align="center"> Annette Smith --

Sexy nymph

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com</td>
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[29 Jan 2006|12:16pm]
You Are The Empress

You represent the ideal female figure: beauty and nurturing.
You bring security and harmony to many.
At times, you are also a very sensual person.
You are characterized by love, pleasure, and desire.

Your fortune:

You need to take some time to think about the role of commitment in your life.
It's possible you need to commit more to others, or deal with how others have treated you.
It is very important for you to support your friends and family right now, difficult as it may be.
You may need to look at your relationship with your mother, or your relationships as a mother.
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Hmm, Livejournal, it's been a while. [06 Jan 2006|08:42pm]
I think the last time I updated was before Singapore. I'm far, far too lazy to recount everything since then, so I think I'll make a list.

  • Went scuba diving in Phuket.
  • Saw heaps of marine life in Langkawi.
  • Bought lots of stuff in Kuala Lumpur.
  • Cruise was very, very fancy.
  • Trents parents are loaded.
  • Stayed at the Spa Botanica in Sentosa
  • Ate 5 coconuts.
  • Spent a day at the spa.
  • Saw pink dolphins.
  • Went diving at the Sentosa Underwater World.
  • Had 'laughing gas' flavoured slushy.
  • Took 315 photos.
  • Ordered lots of room service.
  • Went to the zoo.
  • Bought a giraffe.
  • Discovered green coconut rolls that taste better than pretty much everything.

    Since Singapore:
  • Worked Christmas eve. It was better than New Year's Eve this year.
  • Bought WOW and I love it.
  • Spent lots of time at Trent's house.
  • I watched Star Wars and didn't feel compelled to cover my ears and yell until it was over.
  • Caught up with Andrew.
  • Got a DVD player from my parents for christmas.
  • Took my car in to get the air con fixed and for general repairs.
  • Took it in again because the air con wasn't fixed.
  • Am going to have to take it in for the third time because they still can't find where the gas is leaking from.
  • I've ordered things online for the first time. I'm going to post again once I get them because they're so awesome.
  • Since Wednesday I've been in Safety Bay. I went fishing and caught a few herring. We also picked up a Port Jackson stingray. It was so cool.
  • Went swimming in the ocean with my brother and dad.
  • Tried out the skimmer board my brother and I are sharing from Christmas. It's... odd.
  • Bought 2 boogie boards. Exclaimed at how expensive they were.
  • Bought clothes since almost everything is 15% off at the moment.
  • Came back from Safety Bay today.
  • My computer's at Trent's place so I'm using my Dad's old, old computer.
  • Haven't spoken to Trent since Tuesday. It makes me feel lonely. Buy a fucking sim card already. No one cares if you get a new number.
  • I'm working from 8am til 7pm tomorrow. This makes me sad.
  • I have no phone credit. So if you've tried to contact me on my mobile that's why I haven't replied. Sorry. I'll get around to it soon.
  • I'm at home watching TV with my mum. Oh god, somebody help me.
  • There had better be parties or something to go to next week so I have an excuse not to spend the entire week with my family. Urgh.
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I AM REALLY BEAN. [01 Jan 2006|02:26am]
[ mood | drunk ]


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[02 Dec 2005|12:56pm]
Singapore tomorrow. I hate packing. Too much to remember. So much to do.

I now have four bikini tops. One red, one purple, one green and one pink/black.

I'm in love with new music. Such Great Heights by The Postal Service and Pick Up The Phone by The Notwist.

Harry Potter last night was good. The dragons were sooooo cute! It kept skipping bits and if I hadn't read the book I'd be confused.

There was smoke coming out from under the bonnet of my car near Carousel yesterday on the way to the cinema. Turns out it was steam and the radiator doesn't like me. It just overheated. The radiator fluid keeps mysteriously disappearing. Mum and dad are taking it in to be serviced while I'm away.
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It seems so fitting, don't you think, to dress the ground in white and grey? [28 Nov 2005|03:05pm]
Only 5 days until I leave for Singapore. I'm really very excited. So much I have to remember to bring. I found a book I'd like to read. It's the story of the Batavia (the ship that was wrecked off the shore of Western Australia and was on display in Fremantle). I've got plans for the few days before as well, so I'll have to start packing soon. Thursday I'm going to see Harry Potter 4 with Kelly, tattered_pinion's little sister. It should be fun, just us.

Friday I'm going to this big presentation night at the Forrestfield scout hall where Adam'll be the first scout to be awarded his green cord for the first time in about 7 or 8 years for that group. I'm actually quite proud. They've got, I think, 3 more getting blue cords, 5 getting red and one cub's earned their yellow cord. Rank-wise green's on top and yellow's on the bottom.

Also, new icon. Thinking about re-vamping my LJ to match.

"No heights could keep us from their reach, no sacred place we did not soar."
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Smile like you mean it [22 Nov 2005|04:38pm]
The best kind of holidays are the ones where I can lose track of the time, eat hot apple pie with cold icecream, wear a bikini and feel sexy, lay in the shade and watch the leaves of a tree move in the wind, watch a sunset, catch up on all the little projects I started during the year, clear out my room, organise parties, etc. Summer is the balmy evenings eating olives, cheese, biscuits, fresh bread and dip. I missed spending time in the sun and getting a tan.
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[21 Nov 2005|12:36pm]
"Yes, I regularly pour boiling water over my genitals to keep up the excitement in our relationship. I've been planning this one for months."

"Asmodai says:
Asmodai says:

Yeah, Trent scalded his penis. Admittedly, it was mostly his upper inner thigh, but some got the wang. Hilarity ensued.
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[20 Nov 2005|07:26pm]
I had an entry, but then I decided to get drunk on cheap wine. Oh well.

"I have super glue in my beard."

"I don't think there was ever a time in my life before tonight where I was more mesmerized by wiggling ass."

"Burlesque shows for the win."


EDIT:W00t for drunken icon-making on sub-standard software. Also hyphens.
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[18 Nov 2005|12:42pm]
I'd just like to point out to all those on my friends list who are aquainted with FLEM! (or even those that aren't, go have a look. It's fuckin' fantastic) that there is a donation drive happening. If you donate $5 or more and provide your details in the paypal transaction you'll receive a 9" x 12" glossy print. There's an article on what's been going on here. I recommend taking a look and giving some money. $5 US is something like $7 AUS, not that much.

I had my first experience with BitTorrent last night. As I said last time I tried it "Oh my God, this is the most frustrating software I've ever used". *Sigh* The things I'll go through to watch Naruto.
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[17 Nov 2005|05:59pm]
*Whines* I am completely and utterly addicted to Naruto. I'm up to episode 34 and it's been downloaded, but it's unwatchable! I need it!


EDIT: Urgh. Even episode 35 is unwatchable. I am very, very sad.
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[15 Nov 2005|10:28pm]
OMG. That's so scary. Even more scary is the fact that people post comments saying she's sexy! Urgh!

Also scary, is how skinny this girl is in the first photo.

This is such a cool style:

EDIT:New scary image
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It's summer time! [15 Nov 2005|08:23pm]
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My camera's memory card can hold up to 317 images :D [14 Nov 2005|10:09am]
Um, lots of photos. (sorry to those with dial-up)Collapse )
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"The 4 Pillars of the Male Heterosexual Psyche" [08 Nov 2005|08:39pm]
"...We like naked women, stockings, lesbians and Sean Connery best as James bond, because that's what being a boy is."

I found this website of editorials written by a black guy who was teaching English to kids in Japan. It's scary stuff, but it's absolutely hilarious. You can find it here. Not found in that particular section is a page about natural beauty. I liked it and wanted to share it with the people who read my journal because it makes sense to me.

"Breasts are like God's gift to the world. Art, if you will. Which is why one of the most tragic things on this Earth are breast implants. Why? Why why why? Why must you defile nature like that? It's like painting a handlebar moustache on the Mona Lisa. Defilement, at its worst. First of all, they're so fucking obvious. Its like someone cut a coconut in half and just stuck them on your chest. That's horrible. And some of them, they'll be big sure, but then they'll be so far apart, I swear, you could drive a fucking golf cart up straight up her chest and still clear either boob by a couple of feet. And that's not even mentioning the scars.

And then, they're hard! Breasts should be soft, like fluffy pillows. Or, clouds. Not like the fucking rocky shore of Carmel, California. Advances in technology what the fuck ever. Those fake-os will never match the quality of the real deal. If you can use your chest to beat someone senseless, they are too hard. If you give people hugs, and they pass out from the pain, they are too fucking hard. If you can knock yourself out from jogging, they are too fucking hard. Small soft ones will always be infinitely preferable to large, hard ones."

P.S. Study sucks.
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